Well. This isn’t exactly how I envisioned writing this pregnancy update: from my phone, inside a hospital. But then again this entire pregnancy has been one surprise after another.
I drove myself here Monday at 3 A.M. after waking up soaked with amniotic fluid. So far baby is holding on. There is no real way to tell how this thing is going to turn out. I could go into labor any minute or hang on like this for weeks. The nurses tell me that their job is to keep me pregnant as long as possible and stave off infection. The Perinatologist I saw was a real downer with no good news.
I miss my 2 year old terribly. Being away from her is the hardest part about this. I have been ready to grieve the loss of my unborn child for 11 weeks since this mess began. But he’s not giving up and I’m not giving up on him.