90 minutes


Josiah, Last night I slept almost all night without waking! When I got up this morning, I felt like I could conquer the world. And the best part of all, my friend came over this morning to watch your siblings, so I was able to spend 90 glorious minutes cuddling with you. It was just what I … [Continue reading]

Baby steps

Josiah, today you gave me a special treat. When I saw you, I almost didn't recognize you. They removed your hat and face mask and have you using a nasal cannula instead. I can see your entire face and head now! You're on the most minimal support, breathing-wise. I was on cloud nine after our cuddle … [Continue reading]

Good news and bad news


Well little one, it's not just your mommy that has the nightmares. Daddy has them too. Last night he sat up in bed and said, "Where's Josiah?!". I … [Continue reading]

Green eyes


Hi Josiah, Today was a lot better, no? Mommy didn't lose it when she walked into the NICU this time. Still, the sight of you almost takes my breath … [Continue reading]

Oh my little sweet potato…


I did it again today. When I got to the NICU and saw you, I couldn't hold it in anymore. Sweetie, I'm not usually such a basket case. People who … [Continue reading]

Homeschooling the determined child

This is a post in a series of 31 Days of Minimalist Homeschooling. See the intro post with all the topics here.  A few days ago I introduced the … [Continue reading]

The gift of an hour of normal

kangaroo care

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Going Home

Friday, the nurses told me I could be discharged the next day. Panic immediately set in. I didn't want to go home. I was in pain, walking down the … [Continue reading]

Dear Josiah

I'm sorry I broke down earlier when I visited you. I hope I didn't embarrass you too much. I tried to hold it in and save the ugly tears for when I … [Continue reading]

Josiah Levi


Monday, October 20, 4:07 PM I only know the time because after I emerged from the bathroom, I looked at the clock. I wanted to be able to tell my … [Continue reading]