"We need to talk about schedules", he said. Assuming he's referring to his upcoming workweek, I reply: "Ok. Shoot." Him: "We need to figure out a time for you to write." Me, not knowing whether to laugh, cry, or vomit: "I honestly couldn't care less. I don't have time for it. I can barely … [Continue reading]


2015 Goals

I don't do resolutions, and there's nothing special to me about the start of a new year. When I want to set goals, I do it, no matter the date. But there are a couple of reasons I decided to do a goals post now. For one, there is a lot of great stuff about goals and intentions circulating on … [Continue reading]

Staying well (or not)


A couple of weeks ago I began feeling that tell-tale scratchy throat that usually signals an impending virus, so I started swallowing a half teaspoon … [Continue reading]

37 Weeks

a day in the life of a nicu mom

Today, I would have been 37 weeks pregnant. I've written at least two posts like this in the past, usually detailing third-trimester woes, to-do lists … [Continue reading]

Two steps forward, one step back


Everyone who writes about premature parenting says that the final days/weeks of the NICU journey are the hardest. It's easier to deal with your baby … [Continue reading]



When I woke up this morning I got a huge burst of energy and went around the house cleaning, decluttering and organizing. My 9 year old and I … [Continue reading]


I walked into the NICU a few days ago and saw that Josiah was no longer on CPAP, but had a tiny, thin nasal cannula giving him a bit of breathing … [Continue reading]

Over it


I hate this place. I hate how dark it is inside. I hate the beeps and blips and alarms. I hate the wires. I hate the plastic and the smell of … [Continue reading]

Fragile flower


Two days ago a new preemie was wheeled into the NICU. This happens all the time when I'm there. The nurses, doctor and respiratory therapist all hover … [Continue reading]

One Month


Today was a good day, the best I've had in I'm not sure when. Josiah is a month old today, and for the first time, I am no longer drowning in fear … [Continue reading]